We rarely have coffee in the evenings, but with company here the other night, I made some coffee to go with our dessert. I didn't look at the package carefully and mistakenly made regular coffee instead of decaf coffee.
My mind was racing as I got in bed that night and I just couldn't seem to fall asleep. I realized two days later that I had not made decaf coffee and the mystery of my racing mind was solved.
It reminded me of an experience from the morning we moved away from Charlottesville after J's med school graduation. J and I got up early to go and get donuts for the friends coming over to help us pack the truck.
When J ordered his coffee, the owner of the local donut shop asked him if he wanted "decaf or rrrrrregular" [imagine a rolling R sound, not a stutter :)]. He then responded to my coffee request the same way. Then, as we tried to order donuts, he asked if we wanted "cake or rrrrrrregular" after every specific donut we requested.
We were exhausted, emotional, and extended to capacity and for some reason we found this absolutely hysterical. It was a moment of laughter that we desperately needed on a sad, sad day for us. At tense moments in our marriage we will sometimes break into a chorus of "decaf or rrrrrregular-cake or rrrrregular" just to relieve the stress.
Leaving Charlottesville was heartbreaking. We were newlyweds there. We lived in our first home. We navigated new friends, a new church, a new community. I had my first real job there. We had our first baby there. It was gut-wrenching to say goodbye to such a special place.
We were so excited to drive back for the day yesterday to catch up with some friends and go to church. It was a homecoming in many ways.
I told Jason that I love the way people know me there. They knew me before I was a mom, so they got a much less distracted version of who I am. AND they actually seem to like me! There is something so eternally comforting about being known and being loved. Awesome. And now, to see these dear friends know my kids and love on my kids. Fabulous!
As we drove around town, I could not help but feel like it had been only a matter of hours since we pulled out of there in our rented Penske truck. In the same sense though, it felt like an eternity since we lived those beloved experiences.
It was perhaps most startling to see that our little donut shop is now an empty lot.
I had a rousing internal chorus of "decaf or rrrrregular" as we drove past the deserted space in tribute to such a special place and a special time in our lives.